The Intimate Posture of a Child

The whole lap thing has gotten me pretty worked up a bit. I mean here I am a 22 year old Pastor walking through life and thinking I know things, when in reality I know very little of my Heavenly Father.

My first thing with the illustration is why the lap? I mean I guess I can understand a small child sitting in someone’s lap, that’s “normal” and happens often.

Santa Claus is KNOWN for being at the mall during November – December as parent’s, kids, teenager’s, etc. go to take the photo of Santa’s lap…Maybe that image is “creepy” to you, and well it definitely would be “creepy” for me at 22 to DESIRE to sit in Santa’s lap. Well I’m sure you get my point…sorry for the tangent.

Good thing is God is NOT Santa nor will he EVER be. (Phew)

We’re talking about a God that surpasses our very knowledge. We’re talking about a Father who know’s our intricate details in our life, but CHOOSES to act as if he doesn’t to share a conversation and be WITH us. This means as I speak with the Father he doesn’t say, “Matt I know what you’re about to say,” and cut me off, instead he is eternally patient to hear my story, hurt’s, pain, joys, discouragement’s, and successes. Not only does he want to hear this from me, He wants me to be as close to him as possible so he could hold me, laugh with me, hug me, and WHISPER (not yell) how proud he is of me. Are you close enough to the Father, that if he whispered you could hear Him?

Job 4:12

“This truth was given to me in secret, as though whispered in my ear.

Heavenly Father wants us to be in the most intimate position you can be in as a child, sitting in Daddy’s lap explaining how your first day of kindergarten went. Telling him about your promotion or lay-off, mission’s trip or foreclosure, new family member or a loss of one, new experience or a past hurt. He, the God of the universe is telling YOU to come sit in his lap so he could embrace you fully. Surround you in his presence, and whisper that HE has everything all taken care of and he will walk you through ANYTHING this world throws at you.

God is just beginning to unravel a journey of fatherhood & sonship to me that I may have lacked growing up, but am now starting to understand. Funny how when there’s a hole and void in someones heart nothing but the love of a FATHER could help.

So to all the earthly Father’s….call your kid’s and let them know you love them RIGHT WHERE THEY ARE…and we’ll get to that VERY point in my next post…


Sit in my lap…(Part 2)

In continuation of my previous post I would like to discuss the past…You know the thing that so many of us either love to talk about (Accomplishment’s) or totally avoid, (Hurt’s, pains, etc.) 

My past although is a pleasant one has some unwanted hurt, pain, divorced parent’s, as well as excitement, love, learned opportunities, success,  etc. All of which has helped shape me today.

Maybe the lap sitting thing was hard to understand because well I never sat in daddy’s lap past the age of 7. He wasn’t there. Due to some circumstances beyond my control Daddy was gone and now my sister and I lived with Mommy. I mean Daddy was still around we saw him often, and he drove us to school, but he wasn’t home anymore. 

Disclaimer: My father and I now have a fantastic relationship, and I have seen God TOTALLY transform his heart, as he did Saul on his way to Damascus. I love my Father with all my heart, as he does me. 

Ok well although daddy loved me, let’s be real parent’s make mistakes. I don’t know many parent’s who would claim to be a perfect parent? So my parent’s were just like any other. Trying to understand life, parenting, marriage, etc. 

There was one time where I am coming to read one of my book’s to Daddy. I crawled onto his lap maybe 6 or 7 year’s old to read to him. I began to read as he was watching t.v. Well, as I began to read I was shrugged away because the Orlando Magic was playing. 

It didn’t phase me than, but that was the last time in my memory EVER being in my father’s lap. Funny how a simple thing as trying to watch the game can distract us from things. 

Anyway’s flash forward (Cue dream music) to the prayer meeting I’m having with our lead Pastor from my previous post. You know the one where God wants us to spend time sitting on his lap, and for some reason I was getting frustrated and confused. 

God showed me that image of being shrugged off by my father, that I unknowingly have been caring for 15 years. I began to weep as I felt a heavenly Father begin to tell me that he not only WANTS me on his lap, he DESIRES me to be with him on his lap. 

Why on his lap you may ask, seems kind of weird? Well I thought so to, but God has shown me even more…

Sit in my lap…


Maybe it’s the reading that I have been doing, the prayer time, or just the hidden emotion’s that have been stuffed away. Whatever it is, it is something that has brought me back to this blog. As I walk this journey of what I feel God doing in my life my goal and vision is to pursue His purpose in all that I do.

With that being said God has been showing me thing’s about HIS nature, and His love for me. Could it be Crazy Love from Francis Chan, The Shack by Wm. Paul Young, or just personal revelation’s….but something (The HOLY SPIRIT) is showing me a different side of Fatherhood in God than I have ever seen before.

It all started with a prayer meeting I was attending at my church. Our lead pastor was sharing a revelation that God had shown him. That God loves when we sit in His lap and just enjoy time with well….GOD. The same way father’s enjoy spending time with their kids. Although I am not a Father, I couldn’t wrap my mind around that. Something inside of me was just upset, mad, and a little frustrated as he shared his story. Why was I against something so sweet, and desirable? What was it in the revelation that God is a Father, he loves His children, and wants to be with them that I couldn’t understand. I mean I know God loves me, He’s a father, and he’s ALWAYS there for me, but sitting in His lap? Could that be possible? Attainable? Something just told me it was WAY TO INTIMATE. That’s not what God is like, or is it? As I took the meeting to explore, battle, and share this I will hopefully in the next couple of days unpack my thought how God, want’s me to be a child enjoying time with Him sitting in HIS lap…

All Fall Short- Justification

Rom 3:23  for all have sinned and come short of the glory of God,

We all fall short, and all sin. But is this an excuse to do wrong and justify. “Well I messed up, but all have fallen short, so i’ll just pick up and move on?…”

Can we interpret scripture in many ways? Answer is YES! That’s what’s great about God’s word is that it’s living and moves with our spirit. But can we interpret the word for selfish gain? Answer is also YES!  Scripture should not be used as justification for sin, but as conviction of sin.

Even Satan tried to twist the written word of God:

and said to Him, “If You are the Son of God, throw Yourself down. For it is written:
‘ He shall give His angels charge over you,’
and,  ‘ In their hands they shall bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.’[a]

7 Jesus said to him, “It is written again, ‘You shall not tempt the LORD your God.’[b]

Satan tried to twist the Bible for selfish gain, but Christ knew his word in and out.

No where does the word of God tell me sin is ok. Sin comes in all shapes and forms, and has two ends to a spectrum. For instance, to condemn yourself after you have sinned is a pride issue claiming your unworthy to be called his son/daughter. You can also have a pride issue by not feeling convicted by your sin, justifying it, and not receiving his grace. These two instances are completely opposite but both have pride.

The Word of God was spoken, written, and created to show us the way. A book of love for his creation that he set apart and loves. It is to show us our sinful nature and to bring us back to his Glory. It was meant to show us our sin, and repent of them, not justify them. The word of God continues to grow and teach as the spirit inside of us, connects with the Holy Spirit. Praise be to God for conviction, instead of condemnation. Praise be to God for his love which is unconditional. We as humans live conditionally, and our love is easy when times are great, but when life gets hard, we run.

Don’t justify your sin, just repent. Don’t let Satan get a foothold in your heart. You are equipped with the armor of God use it my brothers/sisters. Stand strong against temptation, but when you give in repent quickly and ask God for forgiveness. He is waiting eagerly to show you HIS Mercy everlasting.

Prayer Vigil Wrap-Up


     This saturday was the young men’s prayer vigil consisting of 8 hours of prayer, worship, and fellowship. The hours occured from (11pm-7am). There was a total of 15 people, with 12 who made all 8 hours. There were 4 men baptized, and 12 of us took Communion together. It was a night of revival, there was a overwhelming amount of God’s Love poured out on us, and we cried, laughed, and grew stronger as brothers.  We had one-on-one time with God as well as partenering with one another to share testimonies and struggles. There was Prayer Warfare, in where we fought against the enemy and the little power he has, and rocked the spiritual realm. God calls us as believers to pray, and so thats what this group did……..

Can’t wait til next month, when it all starts over again….

My personal favorite moment was 12 men singing  (not very well) in a circle to their creator with the worship leader, Matt (not me) leading us in glorious praise.  This overwhelmed me with the power of God’s love

Don’t Underestimate the power of prayer when you call on God he answers:

Psalms 91:14-15
“Because he loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him; 
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. 
He will call upon me, and I will answer him;


     So I’ve been sick this week, and unable to function as I normally do. (sprinting) 🙂 But i have learned one thing through my physical struggle. Satan is out to seek and destroy and I have been hit financially, socially, mentally, and physically this week. This can only mean one thing to me!

You ready? ……………………….

Satan only attacks those who are a threat to his kingdom! I recently have plunged back into reading the word, and now i oppose a threat to his kingdom! This Saturday me and some young men from the church will be doing a 8 hour prayer vigil from 11pm-7am devoted to worship and prayer for our city, and Christ! Only twist is we get NO SLEEP! =] I love these!

So ask yourself have you been through hardships lately? If so REJOICE! God has a BIG PLAN! and Satan is just trying to get in God’s way!

Thank you lord……..

Hebrews 12:7
Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father?

2 Corinthians 12:10
That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Persistent Complaints



      I have this child at work that craves my attention. She always complains about something about others, or physical pain. She always wants to play, and if I’m not able to she will go and than return again two minutes later. As annoying, or overwhelming this may be for me I remember one thing, how much do I complain to God?

Do you thank God in prayers? 


Do you complain about what you have isn’t enough?

     Stop complaining, and thank God that he has even given you the right to live another day! Also, while your here and alive, why not further his kingdom? Take advantage of your day, and do thing without complaining.

     Philippians 2:14-16
14  Do everything without complaining or arguing, 15  so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe 16  as you hold out[a] the word of life—in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing.