If your anything like me than you struggle!! Ok, so your like me, glad we cleared that up 🙂 So we all struggle, and many of us struggle in different ways. Also, none of us has ever struggled with something that someone else hasn’t been through, only trick is to find that person and learn from them!!
My struggle seems to be deeply rooted inside of me. My mom has always told me I’m my worst enemy, critic, etc. I am also a thinker i like to visualize pictures, stories, and write lyrics. With my excessive thinking I also have the tendency to analyze situations. (Ok, I have the tendency to over analyze to i can admit. You can just ask my family or my girlfriend lol)
So what kind of things do I hear in my head?……
“Your not good enough.”
“Who are you to deserve something like this?”
“You can’t accomplish that goal it’s to big a task for you.”
“What did you say that for…Everyone thinks your an idiot.”
“Did you see how they looked at you, you must be annoying.”
“Wow you messed up in school again, you’ll never amount to what your supposed to be at this rate”
“Why do you get to lead these events, there are so much others more qualified than you?”
“Your better than him, don’t let them talk to you like that.”
See we all struggle and this blog has to be one of the hardest I’ve ever written. Don’t think I’ve ever shared so many insecurities at one time. Fact is I doubt myself and struggle with fears of many things. I’m learning that I fear to be isolated or alone, I fear being ignored and unheard, I fear that one day all the things that are good to me will be gone because truth is I don’t deserve them. With all this doubt, and insecurity can also follow depression. What can counter all this negativity? Glad you asked!!
Well through all this I’ve also heard some other voices in my head, but these I really have to focus on to hear them. These voices are much different from the others, but these words I wish to believe.
They tell me……..
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”
How priceless is your unfailing love! Both high and low among men find refuge in the shadow of your wings.”
For great is your love toward me; you have delivered me from the depths of the grave”
When I said, “My foot is slipping,” your love, O LORD, supported me.”
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”
“Abandoned my word, rejected my praise, but when I take you by the hand all things will fade away, and you’ll stand in my grace.”
** Lord thanks for speaking when all doubt, fear, discouragement surround. You are faithful, and i must rely on who YOU say I am to find my strength and Joy. Thank you for loving me first, and allowing me to love you back. Help me understand who you say I am that I may walk in encouragement, hope, love, SECURITY, and joy. AMEN!**
See God is the only one to counter the voices Satan throws our way. I for one am still learning how to hear God above all the noise. But, I can guarantee you that no matter what, he will be speaking the words of life into you ALWAYS. We just have to learn how to hear his sweet soft spoken voice in the background of the noise. When you feel down or discouraged just remember what he has said. (See the above scriptures)