Sit in my lap…(Part 2)

In continuation of my previous post I would like to discuss the past…You know the thing that so many of us either love to talk about (Accomplishment’s) or totally avoid, (Hurt’s, pains, etc.) 

My past although is a pleasant one has some unwanted hurt, pain, divorced parent’s, as well as excitement, love, learned opportunities, success,  etc. All of which has helped shape me today.

Maybe the lap sitting thing was hard to understand because well I never sat in daddy’s lap past the age of 7. He wasn’t there. Due to some circumstances beyond my control Daddy was gone and now my sister and I lived with Mommy. I mean Daddy was still around we saw him often, and he drove us to school, but he wasn’t home anymore. 

Disclaimer: My father and I now have a fantastic relationship, and I have seen God TOTALLY transform his heart, as he did Saul on his way to Damascus. I love my Father with all my heart, as he does me. 

Ok well although daddy loved me, let’s be real parent’s make mistakes. I don’t know many parent’s who would claim to be a perfect parent? So my parent’s were just like any other. Trying to understand life, parenting, marriage, etc. 

There was one time where I am coming to read one of my book’s to Daddy. I crawled onto his lap maybe 6 or 7 year’s old to read to him. I began to read as he was watching t.v. Well, as I began to read I was shrugged away because the Orlando Magic was playing. 

It didn’t phase me than, but that was the last time in my memory EVER being in my father’s lap. Funny how a simple thing as trying to watch the game can distract us from things. 

Anyway’s flash forward (Cue dream music) to the prayer meeting I’m having with our lead Pastor from my previous post. You know the one where God wants us to spend time sitting on his lap, and for some reason I was getting frustrated and confused. 

God showed me that image of being shrugged off by my father, that I unknowingly have been caring for 15 years. I began to weep as I felt a heavenly Father begin to tell me that he not only WANTS me on his lap, he DESIRES me to be with him on his lap. 

Why on his lap you may ask, seems kind of weird? Well I thought so to, but God has shown me even more…


Sit in my lap…


Maybe it’s the reading that I have been doing, the prayer time, or just the hidden emotion’s that have been stuffed away. Whatever it is, it is something that has brought me back to this blog. As I walk this journey of what I feel God doing in my life my goal and vision is to pursue His purpose in all that I do.

With that being said God has been showing me thing’s about HIS nature, and His love for me. Could it be Crazy Love from Francis Chan, The Shack by Wm. Paul Young, or just personal revelation’s….but something (The HOLY SPIRIT) is showing me a different side of Fatherhood in God than I have ever seen before.

It all started with a prayer meeting I was attending at my church. Our lead pastor was sharing a revelation that God had shown him. That God loves when we sit in His lap and just enjoy time with well….GOD. The same way father’s enjoy spending time with their kids. Although I am not a Father, I couldn’t wrap my mind around that. Something inside of me was just upset, mad, and a little frustrated as he shared his story. Why was I against something so sweet, and desirable? What was it in the revelation that God is a Father, he loves His children, and wants to be with them that I couldn’t understand. I mean I know God loves me, He’s a father, and he’s ALWAYS there for me, but sitting in His lap? Could that be possible? Attainable? Something just told me it was WAY TO INTIMATE. That’s not what God is like, or is it? As I took the meeting to explore, battle, and share this I will hopefully in the next couple of days unpack my thought how God, want’s me to be a child enjoying time with Him sitting in HIS lap…

Does God Brag about You!?

Tribulations come in and out of season, it’s a time of testing and growth. Somehow we are supposed to be joyful in some of the most toughest and most trying times in our lives.

God has asked us in

Romans 5:3-4

And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope.

Ok so we are supposed to be joyful in hard times because we it produces our character and builds our faith and hope in Christ. I can understand that and I believe that is one of the hardest things to do especially when things are SO BIG it seems impossible to ever get out. Just think when  money is tight, car starts to fail, we get laid off, and life’s necessities need to be replaced what do you feel? Joy right? (WRONG!) Least for me I get stubborn, upset, confused. Well came across this scripture in my friday bible study and this was our discussion.

Job 1:7-12

And the LORD said to Satan, “From where do you come?”
So Satan answered the LORD and said, “From going to and fro on the earth, and from walking back and forth on it.”
Then the LORD said to Satan, “Have you considered My servant Job, that there is none like him on the earth, a blameless and upright man, one who fears God and shuns evil?”
So Satan answered the LORD and said, “Does Job fear God for nothing? 10 Have You not made a hedge around him, around his household, and around all that he has on every side? You have blessed the work of his hands, and his possessions have increased in the land. But now, stretch out Your hand and touch all that he has, and he will surely curse You to Your face!”
And the LORD said to Satan, “Behold, all that he has is in your power; only do not lay a hand on his person.”
So Satan went out from the presence of the LORD.

Our smallgroup came to this realization! As a father takes pride in his son/ daughter succeeding in life, so God rejoices in our accomplishments and relationship with him. GOD BRAGS about his servant Job to Satan, GOD is excited and thrilled in his son, and wishes his enemy to see his son’s success. This made us look at the verse in Romans differently all of a sudden. Romans talks about being joyful in tribulations, and it suddenly hit us. God bragged about Job, Satan in return wanted to test his faith, which brought tribulations upon Job. See we can take joy in tribulations because it comes after God smiles at you, and says “Satan see my son/ daughter?” Satan says yes, and God brags about your love for HIM. See trials come what seems to be after God bragged about you, so be JOYFUL in the trail because God thinks very highly of you, and LOVES YOU!




One of my good friends email states, cybesd@(Dont you wish you knew).com. After seeing this and realizing what it meant thanks to my girlfriend’s mother, it really got me thinking.

What is a blessing?


1. The act of one that blesses.
2. A short prayer said before or after a meal; grace.
3. Something promoting or contributing to happiness, well-being, or prosperity; a boon.
4. Approbation; approval: This plan has my blessing.
Blessings are from the one who can bless, and are contributed to happiness.
What is happiness?
adj. hap·pi·erhap·pi·est

1. Characterized by good luck; fortunate.
2. Enjoying, showing, or marked by pleasure, satisfaction, or joy.
3. Being especially well-adapted; felicitous: a happy turn of phrase.
4. Cheerful; willing: happy to help.
Happiness brings Joy, laughter, strength, and pleasure.
Nehemiah 8:10
Nehemiah said, “Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is sacred to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.”
The Joy of the Lord is a blessing, and can be attained at any moment. Paul tells us in his writings to be joyful and patient in affliction. Christ says trial’s will come but to have hope and remain in him. He reminds us that ONLY in him can we find blessings, joy, and peace.
So the blessing’s I can count on everyday is like my good friend Javie always says, “I thank the Lord for just giving me life this morning.” Oh how right you are my friend, about counting our blessings as simple as waking up. There are countless blessings that we miss everyday. Why not thank God for the blessings you never even saw, and the trials he protected from ever getting to you? What if that sickness, car accident, death, or tragedy was supposed to hit you, but by the mighty hand of ALMIGHTY God YOU were protected, and never even saw a glimpse of what it was. God loves you, least we can do is chin up, and count our blessings when we’re down.
Like Nehemiah says, “The JOY of the LORD is my strength.” Let’s give him thanks for all our blessings this thursday!

Carried to the Table

Carry- To hold or support while moving; bear:

Table- : a piece of furniture consisting of a smooth flat slab fixed on legs  : a supply or source of food : an act or instance of assembling to eat : meal <sit down to table> : a group of people assembled at or as if at a table.

Carried to the Table- Leeland

Wounded and forsaken
I was shattered by the fall
Broken and forgotten
Feeling lost and all alone
Summoned by the King
Into the Master’s courts
Lifted by the Savior
And cradled in His arms

I was carried to the table
Seated where I don’t belong
Carried to the table
Swept away by His love
And I don’t see my brokenness anymore
When I’m seated at the table of the Lord
I’m carried to the table
The table of the Lord

Fighting thoughts of fear
And wondering why He called my name
Am I good enough to share this cup
This world has left me lame
Even in my weakness
The Savior called my name
In His Holy presence
I’m healed and unashamed

You carried me, my God
You carried me

I was carried to the Table! I was brought to the “Family” of the Lord. I am his son, and no one can take that from me. My dreams are brighter, and my worries shattered! God has reconciled me and protected me as his son. I don’t see my brokenness I see his Glory shining through. This song really spoke to me and is one of my favorites. I praise God that he takes all of us, and seats us at HIS table where WE don’t belong.

Our Father supported, lifted, and brought us to his table. He placed us before his presence because his grace abounds, and his love surpasses all understanding! We eat with our father tonight and forever more, Praise be to God in the highest!!

Good for those who Love God

stormRomans 8:27-28
“27 Now He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He makes intercession for the saints according to the will of God. 28 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”

He searches my heart and knows the mind of the spirit within. The Spirit intercedes for us, even when we don’t realize it. We the people are his saints, and his spirit intercedes for us. He protects us from the tragedies that we never knew would happen because he protected us. The accident or health issue that never occurred because he protected it from ever happening.

He not only intercedes but then can reassure us that when bad times do come, that he will work it for his glory. Even when the storm is so great, we must rely on him to calm the sea. If your like me than you know when tragedies and issues are all around its hard to see his glory and love in it. We need to grow and sometimes our growth is through tremendous pain, and endurance. When I hurt, and my heart breaks for HIS SAINTS i have to believe in Romans 8:28 that ALL will work good for those called, and who love him. He will never leave us or forsake us, in fact I think he’s CLOSER IN A STORM!

Lord help me see your plan, your glory, and your will in the midst of the storms set before me!

Psalms 9:1-2

1 I will praise You, O LORD, with my whole heart;
I will tell of all Your marvelous works.
2 I will be glad and rejoice in You;
I will sing praise to Your name, O Most High.

Suffering- Old school

Written in February 7 2008:

Ok so i was reading recently in the book of Philippians, and this is what i got out of it!

Phillipians 1:29-30

For you have been given not only the privilege of trusting in Christ but also the privilege of suffering for him.  We are in this struggle together. You have seen my struggle in the past, and you know that I am still in the midst of it.

No way Suffering a privilege??

What does this mean, and how is suffering a privelege?

So i’ve come down to this conclusion. Suffering is a privelege because it sets you to be LIKE CHRIST. It is a privilege because in your weakness Christ is stronger. God gets to show you how amazing he is, at times when he’s showing you how small we ALL are. So when we suffer it’s a privilege, because it means that God loves you, and is showing you his AMAZING POWER! He is showing you that you MUST depend on him, and that he still loves you, and is ready to take you to the next level in your walk with him!

Suffering is also a privilege because when you stand for your FAITH! When you stand for what is right, God loves it! If your suffering because of your faith, or because your standing for what is right! Than Rejoice, for your rewards will be MUCH greater than any amount of suffering…..

….Just think people are dying, being tortured, and brutalized, because of their FAITH! So rejoice in your suffering For God Almighty Loves YOU!!!

**Holy Spirit inspired, and this still speaks to me =]**